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Well, here i am, sitting in front of my comp, 1.20am into a damn tiring Thursday. Thursdays are like my most tiring school day of the week, PCMEGP all in one day, not mentioning i have CommzD meeting at 7am later. This means i have to wake up at 5.50am, that leaves me 4 hours of sleeping time, IF i sleep by 1.50am.

Exhausted lol, especially for this week and last week. Seriously, i totally feel like a zombie, walking and stoning at the same time, oblivious to whatever's happening around me. No time to do tutorials = don't know what's happening and just slack off during lesson time, this just pile up and up to this present moment i am totally lagging in all subjects.

Chemistry, still ok with Reaction Kinematics, but really dunno what the hell is with equilibrium. Physics, Gravitry a bit GG and we have Rafflesian Spirit to lecture us again on Oscillation, GGx2. Maths, Power Series and whatever topic after it is like bullshit to me, luckily i still have Intergration after those 2. Sherrie said that differentiation calms her soul and she thinks that she's probably the only one, well i guess i am in it too, differentiation really makes me feel secure and peaceful, maybe that's like the only topic i am a bit familar with since a long long time.

PD, i dunno what to say for PD, we have been encountering every single fking problem that one could encounter during a performance planning. I am like what the hell, problems just appear out of nowhere and things keep getting screwed up. Chorale pulled out, MJ dance pulled out, Tess pulled out, we have so little performances now, haiz. JY's having problems too, with her CCA, with this damned PD and with her PW, i guess she's taking it too hard. Today she's like close to a total breakdown when she called to inform me about MJ, sigh. I have been doing whatever i could to help, but in the end, i didnt do much, and now i cant even help myself.

Just freaking let us pull through this, just let this Sunday pass peacefully, with no random stuff poping up. Not pointing fingers at anyone, but Mr.K is ehhh, too idealistic, his dictator kind of leadership is giving us too much trouble, more than we could handle. I dunno what's going to happen, i dunno.

And i got a 'GOOD' for conduct and i am like wtf. Ppl with WHITE SLIPS get GOOD conduct, i did nothing serious in class, in fact i try to behave myself during her class, but she still thinks i am a fking trouble maker. Whatever b!tch. This is like the first time i really dispise a teacher, all the fked up attitude in class; all the dont-even-want-to-be-there look during morning assembly; all the oh-crap-why-i-see-you face when i meet her in school. Wtf?

Yah, how can i forget this, when my mother is screaming outside this moment? Actually i think i want to direct this at all the parents in the world, DO NOT FKING COMPARE YOUR CHILD WITH OTHERS. YOU ALL DONT KNOW HOW FKING HURTING AND PAINFUL IT IS. Seriously, that sucks. Stop comparing and comparing and comparing with all the UVW ppl, does not having As in my result slip mean i am not worthy to be your kid? I didnt choose to be your son, YOU chose to bring me to this cruel world.

I guess whatever i do does not please her. It's not my fault that i have to stay up so late to do my work and stuff, not like i enjoy doing it that much. More like she will never understand.

It's now 1.48am, i should go and sleep now. Sleeping for 4 hours only is not going to make you feel superb in the morning. And before that i have to print out materials for the meeting later, and also the fked up PD programme list.

Seriously, i open up MSN and look at all the contacts, everyone seems so happy and cheerful, except me.